Happiness is so Far Away...

 I was accepted to the high school i desire... yet i'm not excited about it as i once was.  I've heard the worst remarks and stories of that school and now i'm dreading the results of me going there.  My actions that will affect how others look at me.  During these years i will discover who i truely am... how I react to different situations of trouble and chaos, and my fear is i won't make the right ones that lead me to the path of success.  And i'm scared... i don't want to be known as a "slut" or "loser" i don't want a label... I wan to be me... Someone who has a back bone and says "No" when saying "no" is necesary...  if i don't grow up now it might be too late once i'm in high school. 

i'm done complaining... new topic for a new attitude.© 

This is your Blogger saying GOOD- BYE once more

Xela Q... :)

Yuppers

~HEY!!!

It's been a while since i wrote a blog.  I'm still biting my tongue when i want to say something.  Such as in class I want to say something or start a discussion with the teacher but i'm afraid that...well i'm not sure exactly what i;m afraid of.  In my chidhood and years at school i was taught to speak when spoken too and to stay quiet.  Or maybe it's just a lack of confidence, anyway it's difficult for me to speak verbally unless it's needed for a project. 

My father bought a CANON camera and it's beautiful.  It takes the clearest picture it's amazing.  I took a pictures of my cousin and my father whom doesn't smile.  And more news i took my entrance exam test to enter high school.  i;m getting the results on MARCH 5 i'm SOOOOOO nervous.  I'm a good student but the high school i'm trying to enter doesn't know that.... so pray for me please i need them REALLY BAD!!!! 

The V-Day!!!

okay today is VALENTINE'S DAY yay!!! it's 1:40... so yea

my mom has gone for the weekend and i'm just sitting here watching TV and writing this blog... I'm having sooo much fun by the way.... haha .... however i got flowers from my guy friends so not too horrible yet i am spending today with my dad.  although it's not so bad because i enjoy spending time with him...  I think i'm gonna leave now because i need to go back to the awesome info-mercials... :)

                                                                             Your blogger,

                                                                                    Xela Q. 

SO BORED...can you tell?

Dear Readers,     

I'm Catholic.  I felt like saying that because it's a really important part of me.  Anyway, i got a little bored chat rooms used to excite me now they bore me... so i fill my day with thinking of which highschool am i going to? or which homework i should finish first?  Not much happens to me, I am surpirsed at how fast i draw boys away... haha yeah... It feels odd though because I'm not interested in boys that kind of way, i have guy friends but no boyfriend.... haha My mother is late to pick me up again.  However she complains how little we see each other, I'm in my head like maybe it's because your late... But i don't have the guts to do it so i answer her Yes, Mother and i agree with whatever she says, her visits go much smoother that way.  So now i'm saying Good-Bye once more... because i have to go back to my busy life of being bored on the weekends...

                                                                            Your Writer,

                                                                                        Xela :)

Why does it feel like THIS?

 Hello

I don't know how to start this off. Um.. Let me tell you a bit about myself

 I DON'T LIKE...

- book reports

- the word "pussy" no matter which way it's used either a cat or well you know the other one...

-skinny jeans (i know i'm different)

-softball

-trying to learn how to ride a bike

-watching sports games unless it's the Olympics

-when my dad doesn't think i good enough

            So here are the basic "I don't likes" some people may  disagree with me when i say that i don't like them but some may agree.  My parents are broken up so i guess psychologically i'm not okay but i mean who is.  And if there were such a person who is normal than they're really not because to everyone else they're a freak.  haha  I have friends (YAY SHE'S NOT A LOSER) i don't know (OH! NVM) who is my best friend, however my main friends are Natalie M. and Aprille L. haha

             i do Like

- the smell of fresh cut grass

- singing in the shower

- reading

- drawing

-writing in this new blog even though many people won't read it

-hanging out with friends haha

            that's all i have to say about that

                                                                                                       your Blogger

                                                                                                            Xela :)